I'M GOING TO MAKE IT THROUGH THIS YEAR!

 

I'm going to make it through this year

If it kills me

The Mountain Goats - This Year

This song came up randomly on my Spotify list today.

This is what many call a "G_d wink." Why? Because for me, music gets me through each and everything I need to.  This song may refer to a seventeen year old's issues, but I can relate.  

I broke free on a Saturday morning
I put the pedal to the floor
Headed north on Mills Avenue
And listened to the engine roar

So many times.  Even just to go to the post office, the supermarket, during COVID, as a cancer patient.  Do people freakin' get this?  To hear the engine of my Volvo XC 90 once again? The car that I love? It is amazing! I don't even care if it's 25 mph.  It's my baby.  She's mine.  And yeah. Watch out.  She's badass.  Just like her owner.

I am going to make it through this year
If it kills me
I am going to make it through this year
If it kills me

There is so much this year that has been, well, wow.  For me, personally, it goes way and beyond COVID.  I appreciate all who are struggling with the pandemic.  This is like no other.  I truly wish we could have more compassion for each other - above and beyond political lines.  Humans be humans be humans. 

My dad.  In hospice.  Not being able to drive  him to the library and post office anymore, and joke about the horrendous drivers on the Chelmsford rotary.  His cane out the sunroof, giving the M@ssholes something to think about.  He and I - the four wheel crusaders in a Swede mobile!  

People tell me - "It's for the best."  But have you ever thought what it's like to have your best friend taken away from you? The one who has believed in you since you were little?  But now isn't sure what's up?  Alzheimer's.  The worst.  

I'm angry.  Yet at the same time I refuse not to be.  Please STOP IGNORING THE ELDERLY!  They have so many stories to tell us! We're in the craptacular situation we are now because we haven't listened to history - haven't learned history.

LEARN

LIVE

LOVE